Raw Emotion: A Journey Through Addiction and Despair
The drugs begin to peak.
A smile of joy arrives in me.
But sedation changes to panic and nausea.
And breath starts to shorten.
And heartbeats feel softer.
You won’t try to save me!
You just want to break me!
Or leave me desperate!
You taunt my heart, a sense I never knew I had.
I can’t forget the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth.
How do you do it?
You’re my heroin!
You won’t leave me alone!
Tears of my heart turn to stone!
You taunt my heart, a sense I never knew I had.
I can’t forget the times I was lost and depressed from the awful truth.
How do you do it?
You’re my heroin!
I bet you laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself (myself).
I bet you believe that I’m better off with you than someone else.
Your face arrives again; all hope I had becomes so real.
But under your covers, more torture than pleasure.
And just past your lips, there’s more anger than laughter.
Not now or forever will I ever change you.
I know that to go on, I’ll break you, my habit!
You taunt my heart, a sense I never knew I had.
I can’t forget the times when I was lost and depressed from the awful truth.
How do you do it?
You’re my heroin!
I will save myself!
I’m cutting through.
You’re bleeding out.
And I would tell the truth, but I can’t help myself.
Red rushes out, dissect this nerve.
And I will stop myself before I reach my cell.
I wasn’t asking for the world, and you know that I’m not one to follow through.
All these city streets, the people look the same.
And I can see your face, and I can hear your name.
I wasn’t asking for the world.
You’re stabbing in permanent scars, and you’ll justify it all inside yourself.
You’ve finished me; my pulse is gone, and you’re satisfied to put this all to hell.
I wasn’t asking for the world, and you know that I’m not one to follow through.
All these city streets, the people look the same.
And I can see your face, and I can hear your name.
I wasn’t asking for the world.
Drink the poison when you think it’s over, stabbing yourself when you think it’s too late.
Tragic endings are your thing; you love them, you love letting go.
The ending’s the same; drink the poison when you think it’s over.
Inevitable, Verona lives inside of you.
I wasn’t asking for the world, and you know that I’m not one to follow through.
All these city streets, the people look the same.
And I can see your face, and I can hear your name.
I wasn’t asking for the world.
Long ago, just like the hearse you die to get in again.
We are so far from you.
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know.
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take) from every heart you break (heart you break)?
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain), well I’ve been holding on tonight.
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What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay.
So long and goodnight.
So long and goodnight.
Came a time when every star fall brought you to tears again.
We are the very hurt you sold.
And what’s the worst you take from every heart you break?
And like a blade you stain, well I’ve been holding on tonight.
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What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay.
So long and goodnight.
So long and goodnight.
And if you carry on this way, things are better if I stay.
So long and goodnight.
So long and goodnight.
Can you hear me? Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then we’ll meet again when both our cars collide?
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What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay.
So long and goodnight.
So long and goodnight.
And if you carry on this way, things are better if I stay.
So long and goodnight.
So long and goodnight.
Bend me, shape me, misdirect me; it’s all the same to me.
Look at all this useless talk [x3] upon the cross.
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You look at me, but you don’t see.
Understand I’m a sinner.
Don’t corner me; don’t lecture me.
Raise your hands; you’re a sinner.
Is this everything you wanted? Find another dream.
You never hear a word I say [x3], so pray.
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I’m a sinner.
Look at all these people in front of me [x4].
How?!
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You look at me (you look at me).
Don’t crossssssssssss.